It is very easy to sit on your safety chair at your home and dreaming about all the nice things you would do if you had time, money, career, friends all over the world … For me to stood off my comfy chair and go to other side of the world to be closer to my dreams was a quite big deal.First of all – everybody who knows me, knows also that I am afraid of flying. Seriously afraid and that is kind of s*** if you like traveling as I do, so usually I go and I suffer during the flight … But I always had someone with me for long distance flights. Not now, and I am so proud how I handled those flights to Minnesota for TCC event. Really – no grabbing to others people hands, no screaming and winning. I just sat there and watching movies and reading my book.
Second horrorI had to face was a fear of public speaking and showing my designs to be reviewed. And I attended Pitch Slams. Three of them, actually (for textile, gift and paper designer). Pitch Slams is the place where you present your work (I had to say I was preparing for this quite a long time) in front of the experts in certain field. And they tell you what is the best thing for you to do and if your ideas could hit the market or not. Presenting myself in English was also one of my concerns, cause I literally don’t speak and practice English every day. I write. I do not speak. And this is quite a difference.
And the third little self issue was: I am not very extroverted person. I like people. I like hanging out with my friends, but I am little shy when it comes to meeting unknown people. I haven’t really known anybody. O.k. I had a few FB artists friends there to meet, but otherwise I didn’t know a soul. I can just laugh now about that fear. It was a welcoming place to be. I will never forget a moment when I was waiting to register and Nancy Soriano came down the hall and she looked at me and I said: “Hi, I am Petra!” And she said: “OMG, you are Petra Kern! I know who you are. I am so glad, you’re here.” And she hugged me. I was so surprised that I just choked, but that was it – I knew in that moment that everything will be fine. And it was, better than fine.
I am really even now proceesing all the good vibrations, ideas, words, connections, experiences … Everything. I will write a little bit more about people I’ve met there. Kelly Rae said on the breakfast panel that she loved it here, because she can be crazy as crazy everybody is. I am still wondering why the energy was so positive and vibrating. I don’t know, but I hearted Jo Packhams words: “You know when people said for someone who had succeded in certain field ‘oh, he was at the right place at the right time.’? Well this is your place in this is your right time and these are your people …” I couldn’t agree more. I was among my people, peeps.